Crossroads I: Job Application
Ah.
Listening to my free CD "Around the World with Señor Coconut and his Orchestra", courtesy of LUSH99.5, while sipping on New Zealand's Matua Valley Hawkes Bay Sauvignon Blanc 2007.
Belying my true state, I have been disturbed.
My heart is burdened.
A conundrum without extrication, a puzzle with no solution.
The dreaded "Quarter Life Crisis", I have reached.
I've been thinking, pondering and contemplating a lot recently. I feel compelled in many ways to take a stab in life and make life-changing decisions. Procrastination and denial has led me nowhere. More than three years have past since I've entered NUS, and I ain't got a clue what the f*3k I'm gonna do when I graduate.
The time has come. At a major crossroad, I can no longer run away from the inevitable, unless unemployment is going to be a career option. If there's a time to make a decision, it's definitely gonna be now.
Yes, a big fat ugly black on hideous red background, NOW.
Of course, to some others, the options on what to do upon graduation couldn't be clearer. Just follow your interest and value system, they say, and the decision will come to light.
But hold your horses, Kelvin. A cursory reflection of my past 24 years hasn't exactly been useful.
If I could surmise my life in two words, it would be "Neutrally Neutral."
When it came to important decisions, I would always pick the safest options, simply eliminating those that seem the most incongruous with my beliefs and values... and somehow, I would manage to eliminate all except one.
So it's business as usual for me, at least for now.
Looking through all the various recruitment talks that have been and will be held in NUS...
Crossing out those that clearly have no connection or interest with me...
Sending one application at a time...
Drinking more wine...
Look at more websites...
Drink even more...
Look.
Drink.
Drink..
DRINK...
DAMN IT. I'm going to be an unemployed alcoholic if I can't make up my mind!
*hic*
Listening to my free CD "Around the World with Señor Coconut and his Orchestra", courtesy of LUSH99.5, while sipping on New Zealand's Matua Valley Hawkes Bay Sauvignon Blanc 2007.
(Pseudo) Wine Notes from Kelvin:Fine, I've digressed from the original intent of this post.
A pale straw colour wine. Bouquet is grassy with green apple and citrusy notes. Zesty though bordering on being sharp in acidity. Overall an enjoyable wine for everyday drinking.
Belying my true state, I have been disturbed.
My heart is burdened.
A conundrum without extrication, a puzzle with no solution.
The dreaded "Quarter Life Crisis", I have reached.
I've been thinking, pondering and contemplating a lot recently. I feel compelled in many ways to take a stab in life and make life-changing decisions. Procrastination and denial has led me nowhere. More than three years have past since I've entered NUS, and I ain't got a clue what the f*3k I'm gonna do when I graduate.
The time has come. At a major crossroad, I can no longer run away from the inevitable, unless unemployment is going to be a career option. If there's a time to make a decision, it's definitely gonna be now.
Yes, a big fat ugly black on hideous red background, NOW.
Of course, to some others, the options on what to do upon graduation couldn't be clearer. Just follow your interest and value system, they say, and the decision will come to light.
But hold your horses, Kelvin. A cursory reflection of my past 24 years hasn't exactly been useful.
If I could surmise my life in two words, it would be "Neutrally Neutral."
When it came to important decisions, I would always pick the safest options, simply eliminating those that seem the most incongruous with my beliefs and values... and somehow, I would manage to eliminate all except one.
So it's business as usual for me, at least for now.
Looking through all the various recruitment talks that have been and will be held in NUS...
Crossing out those that clearly have no connection or interest with me...
Sending one application at a time...
Drinking more wine...
Look at more websites...
Drink even more...
Look.
Drink.
Drink..
DRINK...
DAMN IT. I'm going to be an unemployed alcoholic if I can't make up my mind!
*hic*
Labels: Crossroads, Job Application
posted by Kelvin Lim at 12:15 am
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